the insights of missy

I CAN'T get enough of FACEBOOK!!!!

2007-02-12T19:30:00.000-05:00

Recently, I joined the latest craze...FACEBOOK! I didn't know what I'd think of it. I'm not even sure what compelled me to join Facebook in the first place BUT my blogger friends it is truly amazing!!

Blogger has given me a forum to speak my heart and my mind. Myspace has given me an opportunity to make some connections but it has nothing on Facebook. Example: Myspace has connected me to my circle of friends I've had within the last couple years from college. A little network of friends. Facebook...within the last 2 weeks has connected me with one of my best friends from Kindergarden to Grade 8. Up until 2 weeks ago on Facebook, I had not seen or heard from Kim since my last day of elementary school. What a blessing to find her again. I was forced to go to high school in a different district because it was closer to home but that meant leaving all of my friends. Kim lived the furthest away from me and her phone number was long distance...so our friendship was the one to be most affected in the transition. I missed her friendship A LOT in high school and I still think about her from time to time but I had no idea that God would chose to open this door and I'm grateful He has!!!!

I have also reconnected with friends from my childhood...kids I used to hang out with because our parents were friends. This has been such an amazing experience for me. It's as easy as typing the name of an old friend and seeing if they have a facebook account. I have been so excited. If you don't have an account with facebook, I think it's a great idea to start one. It has brought me such joy and I just had to share it with you. I'm so looking forward to the day when I get to sit face to face again with Kim and we can just relax, have a warm drink and share the last 12 years of our lives. I believe God will give us that chance or He wouldn't have reconnected us in the first place.

Who was your best friend in Elementary School?
If given the chance, would you want to know how they're and who they've become?
I've been given that chance and I want to take full advantage of it!!!

The most recent event...

2007-01-29T10:16:00.000-05:00

I am officially a teacher come Wednesday afternoon! I have been asked to join the Sussex Christian school team as Grade 9/10 religious world view teacher. Ms. Boyd-Mitchell and school board are entrusting this class to my care. This is so wild...I wouldn't have ever expected this. For the first part of the semester, we will be walkng through the Bible from Genesis to Revelation exploring key thoughts and themes. We will be finishing up the semester with a study on world religions. There is also an exciting aspect to the experience. I will be joining my class and the entire high school body on a fully expense paid trip to New York City in April. How exciting is that? NEW YORK CITY!!!! WHOA! It is my hope and prayer that your new year has started off with lots of exciting things on the horizon for you too.

A Move of God...so sweet!

2007-01-14T23:04:00.000-05:00

Have you ever heard Oprah say, "Jesus showed up and showed out?"
Have you ever seen the likes of Usher, Patti Labelle, Mariah Carey, Janet Jackson...encountering God through spontaneous worship?
It's all right here!!
This is a powerful message of life changing worship that left me and many celebrities absolutely speechless! It was so powerful that I have literally watch it over and over again. It made me want to be better and I could feel freedom in worship rise up within me. It made me want and embrace more change in my life. Jesus has many things he wants to do in our lives. I want to follow His lead at all times. My prayer is may our hearts be moved by the very things that move the heart of Jesus!
I know one thing is for sure...Jesus most certainly showed up and showed off!!! Yes Jesus! Now, this is true worship!
You have to watch it for yourself(click the title)...believe me, IT'S TRULY WORTH IT!
Let me know what you think?

A Tribute to Fancy!

2007-01-10T18:53:00.000-05:00

There was always a part of me that knew someday you would die but I always wished the day would never come! I can hardly remember not having you and it feels so hard to let you go.

You graced our lives with a joy only you could fill. I'll never forget how you lived up to your name Fancy. You were the Queen of the house and I know one thing is for sure...the house will not be the same without you!

Merry Christmas

2006-12-12T22:17:00.000-05:00


A Christmas Message from The longest running roommates at Bethany! The last minute and a half makes it all worth it! Merry Christmas Friends...ENJOY our foolishness!

So, this is Christmas...

2006-12-02T19:36:00.000-05:00

The Christmas parties have begun. Christmas decorations are being displayed around the house...with no effort of mine. I sit here as the DJ for the evening. I'm not the decorating type! It's nice but I often find myself lost in the midst of it so I leave it for those who enjoy it. In about 13 days, I aboard a jet plane and head west to Ontario for Christmas. I'm excited. This year I will be spending 3 weeks with friends and family. I have to make up for loss time. I have to redeem myself from last year when I was home for my sister's wedding and not home for Christmas day. There is only one problem this year...I've spend so much time away from my family and friends I haven't got the slightest clue what to give them for Christmas. I always love to give something of sentimental value but I often need mental notes for that. No quality time spent means no mental notes noted!! Anybody know of any good gift ideas??? Please share...
Until next time...enjoy the reason for the season and happy shopping!!

I stand in AWE of you, Jesus!!

2006-11-15T21:37:00.000-05:00

We got the victory...got the victory.
The devil is defeated and God be praised!

Sing to the King Who is coming to reign
Glory to Jesus, the Lamb that was slain
Life and salvation His empire shall bring
And joy to the nations when Jesus is King

Come, let us sing a song
A song declaring that we belong to Jesus
He is all we need
Lift up a heart of praise
Sing now with voices raised to Jesus
Sing to the King

For His returning we watch and we pray
We will be ready the dawn of that day
We'll join in singing with all the redeemed
'Cause Satan is vanquished and my Jesus is King

I have a reason to sing today!
I've been working in the Christian School.
Although, it's a Christian school, some students are not Christians.
There is one young lady in Grade 9 who just started this year.
She has been through a lot in her life and I could feel it whenever I am near her.
Often times, when I would teach in her class she would refuse to look in my direction.
Oh, how I have been praying for her.
These last few weeks, I have seen a change happening in her.
She started smiling and looking people in the eyes!
I am so excited for her because she has now accepted Christ in her life.
She came to Bible Study last week at our place and gave her life to the Lord here.
PRAISE GOD!!! We had no idea until today!
God has won her heart!!! We can see the difference He is making in her life! There is a joy and peace all over her! YES, YES, YES...You're an awesome God! You change lives, Lord! Your saving grace is truly amazing! You make us sing for joy and dance in pure delight! Thank you for making us free and complete in You! I stand in AWE of you, Jesus!!!

Just a little something different...

2006-11-07T18:44:00.000-05:00

[A is for age:]
25

[B is for best friend:]
Is it possible to have more than 1.
Let's just say...
if you have been a roommate of mine and I still call you roommate, chances are you rank pretty high on my friend scale

[C is for crush:]
USHER of course

[D is for favorite drink:]
Coca-Cola Classic. There's a reason it has the word classic in the name!

[E is for essential item you use everyday:]
essential or essentials? I believe there was a spelling error...haha
Toothbrush
Gum
Chocolate

[F is for favorite song at the moment:]
I love you, Lord-Byron Cage

[G is for favorite game]
UNO

[H is for hometown:]
Napanee, ON-"The home of Avril Lavigne"

[I is for instruments you play:]
I play one instrument: It's an instrument to me...my soundboard

[J is for favorite fruit juice?:]
Pineapple

[K is for kids?]
becoming more okay with the idea

[L is for last kiss:]
A couple months ago

[M is for marriage:]
AGAIN, becoming more okay with the idea

[N is for # of siblings]
3

[O is for overnight hospital stays:]
Yes, 3 nights after my car accident

[P is for phobias:]
Fear of throwing up

[Q is for quote:]
Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

[R is for biggest regret]
Living by Default for so long

[S is for self confidence:]
I'm getting there

[T is for time you wake up:]
Depends...

[U is for underwear:]
Have to check...pink and blue strips

[V is for vegetable you love:]
Cucumbers

[W is for worst habit:]
Procrastinating tends to be the death of me

[X is for x-rays you've had]
MANY!!!

[Y is for yummy food you make:]
Apple Crisp

[Z is for zodiac sign:]
Cancer

Life in Fast-Forward

2006-10-26T15:28:00.000-04:00

I've been doing more in a run of a day then I use to do in a run of a week!!! This is the first day of rest since last Monday. Between teaching/preaching and the running list of voluteering opportunities, it keeps me incredibly busy. I didn't expect to ever see my life in this light. At the beginning of the fall, God revealed that I was walking into a new season of my life. I am walking in something brand new. I use to live my life in default. I would let things fall how they may. I would take the easy road almost everytime but God has taken a hold of my heart and has put it on the plan of purpose. I wake up knowing everyday has been given by Him and He has something for me to do in it. I'm making up for lost time. Gone are the days when I just existed! Gone are the days when I watched my life go by. For all the days I did nothing of value, I give you this day, Lord! Be my hands and feet. Speak through me. Move my heart to make a difference.

Without You-Kirk Franklin

I can take a plane high up in the sky and fly for a million miles
Write a melody so sweet, make a tear turn into a smile
I can see the color of spring I can even feel the weather change
And soon the leaves fall and winter calls,
'cause nothing ever stays the same
When I think of where I've been, what I've done and all I own
How I think I know everything, like I made it here on my own
And like the wind that blows, like a flower that grows
Still with all I can do

(Without You) life's a song with no end
Without You, like having a heart that won't mend
Without You, we're just actors on a stage
Like a child who's lost his way
Wouldn't be here today without You

I admit that sometimes pride tries to hide my view
And even this gift that you gave me, I forget it's for You
And all the many days and many ways Your grace I've abused
Still you were patient and Your love loved me through
But the wind still blows and the flower still grows and one thing is still true.

(Without You) life's a wound that won't heal
Without You, nothing in this world is for real
Without You, we're just actors on a stage
Like a child who's lost his way
Wouldn't be here today without You

Can't live, can't see Your will for me
Can't do anything
Anything

Without You, we're like a bride with no groom
Without You, it's like seeing no sunshine in June
Without You, we're just actors on a stage
Like a child who's lost his way
We wouldn't be here today
Without You, Jesus my life would be lost.
Without You, I'll never know what it cost
To see You, lay Your life down for me
From my past now I'm free
Tell me where would I be without You.
Tell me where would I be without You
Wouldn't be here today without You
Wouldn't be here today without You

I can take a plane high up in the sky and fly for a million miles

Who would have ever thought I'd enjoy teaching???

2006-10-05T15:26:00.000-04:00

Sorry for slacking off on the blog entries!
I have just finished my second day substituting at the Christian school.
Principal for a day was sweet! Everyone called me Miss Principal all day! I like that kind of authority!!! I was teaching High School students and they really made my day. There were a couple comedians in the group that keep it interesting and fun! One student asked if Ms. Boyd-Mitchell (the principal/Highschool teacher) was training me to take her job. Hilarious! Miss Melissa Mowbray: Principal of a school and Highschool teacher! I don't think so....

Today, I was manning the office! Again, a VERY funny position for me since I don't have an organization/administration bone in me however the day went by without a hitch! I'm actually really enjoying myself. Who would have ever thought I would enjoy school/teaching? I didn't... However, today I was asked to be one of the main substitute teachers and I said yes so I guess it's a good thing I like it! The only thing I'm nervous about is the 7:00am phone call asking if I can teach a class that day without warning. The way things have turned out so far...I can imagine my next phone will be at 7:00 am to cover for Mrs. Wallace. Mrs. Wallace is the science and math teacher. We're talking about Chemistry, biology and Physics teacher. I haven't got the slightest clue about those class cause I chose to take classes like Radio Broadcasting, Photography and entertainment instead. Well, I took general science in grade 9 and environmental science in grade 10 and I was done with science and onto the fun!

Anyways, it's been a great experience substituting at the Christian school! To all the teachers out there, substituting is great but that's as far as it goes for me. It's hard work and a high calling...may God bless you richly!!!!

If only Dr. Maxwell knew...

2006-09-21T15:12:00.000-04:00

Story time with Missy again! Most people know I'm in Sussex doing ministry well apart of that ministry I'm involved in is helping during chapel services at the Christian school. Our first Chapel went very well on Wednesday! It was awesome! So, we went home after it all and we're just preparing lunch when the phone rings. Almira (my ministry partner) answers the phone and I can hear her talking about the chapel service. She gets off the phone and comes in the kitchen and tells me she was just talking to Marsha and she asked if I'd be interested in working as a substitute teacher on Friday. After talking to Almira for a few minutes I thought it was worth trying and see how I liked it. The only question I had was...what age group? Almira called Marsha back and told her I was interested but was curious which age group. Almira hung up the phone and she burst out laughing! She looked at me and could hardly get the words out of her mouth. I thought...Oh no, I'm probably the kindergarden teacher. (She knows how I feel about children so that would be pretty hilarious) But no, she looked at me and said through her laughter, "You are substituting for Marsha herself...Missy, You're substituting for the PRINCIPAL...that's absolutely hilarious!"

Blogger friends, I think that is the hardest I have ever laughed in my whole life! Like for real, Academic Probation Queen herself finally graduates after how many years at Bethany and is now substituting for the High school teacher/Principal at the Christian school! HAHAHAHAHA! I mean...I was responsible for some of the rules made about the academics at Bethany. You know the one where you can't get under a certain GPA or your automatically gone with no second semester grace...yup you can blame me for that one! So, Almira nearly fell out of the car laughing when she mentioned what Bethany would think of it. No Joke! I would love to walk up to Dr. Maxwell or Prez and tell them! I can only imagine the dumbfounded look I'd get from both of them. LOL I also wonder what on earth God is up to? The things he's doing in my life are blowing me right out of the water! We definately serve a God with a HUGE sense of humor! In all seriousness, my big day is tomorrow and I'd appreciate your prayers. I'm a bit nervous at the thought of substituting for an entire day of class! We're not just talking about teaching a bible class...we're talking about Math and English too. It's been awhile! Wild! Well, be looking for my blog update on how it turns out!

I have a WORD!

2006-09-12T11:16:00.000-04:00

I found myself struggling to know what to write in these last days. I've wanted to communicate and yet no words were found. Today, I have a word!! I don't want to write fluffy words but what is real and true of my life as it stands! I am no longer satisfied with life as usual...the same fluffy words, the same fluffy prayers and the same fluffy preaching!

I want more...I want an intimate relationship with my Abba Father! I want to be filled with His Holy Spirit and I want the Cross of Jesus to move my heart into action! This comes with a cost! This is what I’ve learned. If you choose to walk like Jesus and carry out your God given purpose EXPECT the enemy to come! Be prepared with shield in one hand and your sword in the other! We are not dealing with people made of flesh and blood but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world and against those mighty powers of darkness who rule this world. (Ephesians 6) Why is the church not sending out the search light on these issues and showing us what we're really dealing with? Is there anyone with me here? We need to stop playing church! I've learned my lesson...Here's my testimony...Thank you Jesus!

I must testify of God's faithfulness to me! I will not rest until I testify of what God has done! Like Jesus, just about the time I was going to walk into my God given purpose for my life I had an uninvited guest show up...none other than the enemy himself. (Matthew 4)Actually, he showed up the very week I was moving into the home of ministry God had for me! It was like I didn't realize he would come and I was caught unprepared. The higher the calling...the harder the temptation! I should have known.

The Enemy pulled out all of his guns! He knew stealing something from a store or compulsive lying would have no effect on me. He knew that just any man couldn't come and steal my heart away so he pulled out all his tricks (Ephesians 6:11) and brought one I could not say no to. My dream guy! I got into the car, I took the drink, I danced the dance, I receive the kiss and I fell right on in. My shield was down and I fell before I realized what had hit me. It's that easy!

Don't underestimate the enemy’s tactics but even more so DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE MY JESUS! The power He gives you through His death and resurrection! This same power tells me that I have to die to things to be resurrected. (Philippians 3:10-12) It is not my intention to be a heavy and I'm sure many have read some and move on. BUT, I stand on the solid rock of truth and I am not going to start believing the lie now that I'm alone in this battle or that this truth is not to be shared. Please don't believe the lie that just because I chose to date a non-christian and all you date is Christian that the enemy’s tactics are any different...He'll try to take you out with a kiss too. The enemy tempts all of us with what is common to man...Christian or not! (1 Corinthians 10:12, 13)

This testimony is not anyone’s invitation to come and say, “I told you so” for God allowed me to walk down this path not so far as to regret but so far as to learn the lesson! God knew what it would do to me…it would make me wiser and stronger and more aware of how the enemy seeks to destroy our ministries and our lives. Let’s see him for who he is! I would have had more peace and joy throughout my years had I not bought into his lies. I would have a more intimate relationship with my Lord and Saviour had he not gotten in the way. Now that I know and see him for who he is…I stand in my God given authority and say I’m taking my life and everyone lives that I love back from this game we never intentionally chose to play! I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!! I WANT MY FAMILY BACK! MY FRIENDS BACK!! You want my church, my family, my friends…You want to play with my emotions, devil! You want to take me out! You want to take my dignity and respect! You want to cause disharmony between saints! You want to watch us destroy ourselves trying to measure up not to God’s standard but to your lies you keep telling us everyday! I don’t measure up…I’m not good enough…I’m alone…I’m worthless…I’m fat…I’m stupid…I’m ugly…I’m _________!!!!! OH NO…You want it BUT YOU CAN’T HAVE IT!! You have to get pass my Lord first and truth is He’s already DEFEATED YOU!

Gone are the days when I take the defense…I’m choosing to be in offense standing on the promises of God! I know my authority and I walk in it today! Choose the offense and walk with me, my blogger friends! Let’s not accept life as usual and let’s do kingdom damage to any schemes of the enemy!! Let’s be in the world but not of the world! Claim your life back!

I Want It All Back: Tye Tribbett

Take it by force
We're going to take it back

I want all back
Everything you that you took from me
I want it all back
Even my joy and peace from me
I want it all back
Everything you got thus far
I want it all back

Devil, You may have thought, you won that last round
You may have laughed (cuz) I almost fell down
Maybe you think I give up easy
But its not over, I got more in me

You thought I stopped, you thought I sat down
But I am standin', you made me mad now!
You got some things, I think you owe me
I've come to get back everything that you stole

I want all back
Everything you that you took from me
I want it all back
Even my hopes and dreams from me
I want it all back
Everything you got thus far
I want it all back

You hit me hard, I should be knocked out
Things I've been through, don't even wanna talk about
You crossed the line (this time) you violated me
I want revenge (I want everything back from) A to Z
The battle's not mine, the battle is the Lord's
In the name of JESUS, I'm takin it by force

I want it all back

If you only knew what I was gonna be
After the storm you wouldn't have even bothered me (Channel)

(And now I'm) stronger
(And I got more) power
(I'm a little bit) wiser
(And I got more) strength
(I got the) anointing
(Got God's) favor
(And we're still) standing
I want it all back

Give me my stuff back, give me my stuff, give me my stuff back
I want it all
What about peace that you took? What the strength you took? What about the power you took? What about the love you took?
What about your family and all your self-esteem, even your destiny?
What about the joy you tasted and the time you wasted, do you want it back?
What about your place in God and all your faith in God, even the ways of God?
What about your hopes and dreams and your communities, even your kids and teens?
I want it want it want it want it...
I want it all back

Dedicated to Roommates!!!!

2006-08-18T17:15:00.000-04:00

If you have ever gone to College

Had more than 1 sibling

You know the joys of having a roommate!

I've had a special few!

Here is a picture of those I spent this past school year with.

Starting from left to right:

First, Diana Sherri-Lynn "Davis" Billings...say that 10 times!! haha

Now that Diana's married, I have given over my rights as roommate to Jon! I've given up the hope that I could keep Diana forever but lucky me...Jon has a seminar at Bethany the last week of August and I get to go visit Diana for the week while He's gone!!!! In all seriousness, it's hard to say goodbye to a roommate you've had for like 6 years! Diana and I were great roommates! She'd even fill out my roommate request form for me at Bethany! Diana, you are truly wonderful! I am grateful for our friendship and all that it has meant to me through the years.

Second is Me Melissa "Missy" Doreen Mowbray!!! Hee Hee! I'm a great roommate to myself! Who am I kidding? I've wanted to divorce myself a time or two. It's true...I am a walking oxymoron! (Oxymoron-I've always love that word! It makes me laugh!) Sometimes I don't even know what I want! But overall, I'm alright'...a little messy but alright'

Third, Tina Joy Becker! I think I could say that 10 times over!! It's really amazing how you can know someone for such a short period of time and still feel like you've known them forever. I think it's because I see so much of myself in Tina. Her parents came for American Thanksgiving and picked up on it right away. Let's see...I like Usher and she likes Derek Jeter aka Black guys!! Country Music lovers and proud of it! There's the oxymoron...do you see it? Black guys and Country music??? OXYMORON!! HAHA!! Quiet and shy but silly and hyper! Tina is a great friend and she's coming back to Sussex in a couple weeks!! I am super excited! We'll have so much to get caught up on! Yeah for Tina Joy Becker!

Fourth, my heartbreaker and most favorite cat in the ENTIRE world...Francis "Franny Fran Frank Frankie" Xavier Klob..."Mowbray hee hee"!! He's my heartbreaker for 4 reasons:

1. I swore I would never love a cat

2. I fell in love with this cat

3. I cried when I said goodbye at the beginning of the summer

4. I went to see him today and he looked at me like he didn't know me! He jumped from my arms and ran away! HEARTBREAKER, why do you insist on making me cry!!!!

Frankie is still my favorite cat...He's been through a lot this past year. He had his owners leave him to strangers. He had to get use to the strangers and when he did they left him too. He was uprooted from his home for like 2 months to live in another's strangers home only to be dropped back to his home and now there's a 2 and half year old stranger who streams everytime she sees him! Poor cat is going to need Oprah's pet therapist after all this!! I'll never forget about Frankie even though it seems he has forgotton me. He kept me from being alone on those lonely Christmas and March Breaks! I won't forget how he'd curl up and fall asleep on my lap while watching TV together or the countless times he'd lay across my hands as I typed because the poor cat was jeolous of my computer!!

Roommates are the best!! I am truly blessed!

2006-08-09T19:58:00.000-04:00

The most wonderful thought came to my mind today...

God MUST really love me!!
He must really love me to extend Himself to me like He has, is and continues to do!
Only love could compel a heart to move like He has for me!
He must really see something special in me to define my purpose so early in my life!
He must really see potential in my life since He's made my path so very clear!
He must really see that I am worthy of His calling to place me where I am. AND He did not place as many Godly Woman and mentors in my life for me to achieve nothing and their efforts to be in vain!

Oh My heart rejoices to know I am loved by my Almighty Abba Father!
Not that I didn't know it before BUT it hit me with revelation power today.
God MUST really love you...because He chose for me to share this with you!

2006-07-15T21:46:00.000-04:00

Dedicated to Korrie Silver

Happy Birthday to you!

If you have spent anytime at all with me...

You have heard this name though you may have never seen a picture...

Well, here's your picture!

Korrie has been the one consistant friend in my life since I was 13 years old.

She's one of those all-round friends.

One minute...she's like a big sister

The next minute...she's my financial consultant!

Korrie and I have always shared our birthday's together since their only days a part but this year is different since we live in different provinces and are 18 hours a part!!

Korrie is one of those friends that I miss daily and have basically since I was 13 since she often was away at University.

BUT today, my heart aches to spend time with her.

To say I miss her is an understatement!

It's been way too long...since Christmas!

It was an absolute joy to hear her voice today!!

Have you ever felt like you wanted to be in 2 places at once?

If I could pick up and fly to Toronto I would in a heartbeat.

Growing up is hard to do...

Korrie, you are truly an amazing friend!

You are a gift from the Father's own hand to me!

I am so very blessed to have you in my life!

When I met you, I couldn't look people in the eye...

I was beyond shy...I didn't have a low self-esteem.

I simply didn't have a self esteem at all.

But, you reached out to me.

You spent time with me.

You saw value in me!

I remember you saying to me...

"You may not believe in yourself but I have plenty enough belief in you for the both of us!!"

You always saw the best in me!

I am eternally grateful to you and for you!

May God bless you like only He can!!

2006-07-13T11:29:00.000-04:00

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	delicious
Your hugs are...	friendly
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	amazing
Your love is...	eternal

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Just for Fun!

2006-07-06T17:39:00.000-04:00

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:

1. Waitress at McDonuts (yes, this is a real place and it is extremely cheesey but I didn't name it...I just worked there!)
2. Head Sound Tech at Bethany Bible College
3. Sales Associate at Native Renaissance Gift Shop and Art Gallery
4. Assistant Manager at Movie Gallery

B) Four movies you would watch over and over: (And I do watch over and over)

1. Save the Last Dance
2. Return to me
3. Big Daddy
4. A Walk to Remember

C) Four places you have lived:

1. Mowbray Side Road for 18 years of my life near Napanee, ON
2. Sussex, NB
3. Mapleton, ME for a summer
4. Toronto, ON-My favorite City!!

D) Four TV shows you love to watch

1. Oprah
2. Extreme Makeover:Home Edition
3. Three Wishes
4. Dr.Phil

E) Four places you have been on vacation:

1. PEI
2. Ohio
3. Maryland
4. Toronto

F)Web sites you visit daily:

1. Hotmail
2. Blogspot
3. Streaming Faith
4. My Space

G) Four of my favourite foods:

1. Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream
2. Chicken Fingers and Fries
3. Steak Stir-fry
4. Apple Crisp

H) Four places I would rather be right now:

1. Toronto
2. In the Islands
3. Italy
4. The Mall

I'm starring in my very own ROMANTIC COMEDY

2006-06-24T00:29:00.000-04:00

I must admit I am a Romantic Comedy or "chick flick" LOVER! Now, it feels like I'm starring in one. It's amazing. Richard is beyond words. I'm having such a incredible time!! I went to Fredericton with him in his BMW convertible with the top down. Two words: Freedom and FUN! He has a beautiful car. I came back to Sussex on Sunday with him too. Did I go straight home? haha...no! We went a played a couple games of pool. We eat a little supper together and watched "an unfinished life." On Wednesday, he invited me to join him on a road trip to Halifax. What an amazing time!! We explored downtown Halifax...the cute shops, resturants and parks. Speaking of parks...he almost threw me into the parks pond. Ahh...I probably would have deserved it. I can be a smart bum at times. It's been fun sharing with you my journey to this place. It's been quite the journey since March. Thought I'd never get a date and now I've been on 3. That's serious business. I've learned somethings...I was never reading into the situation. He told me that everything he has said and done up to this point was absolutely intentional. He came into Movie Gallery last Wednesday night just to get my phone number...no other reason. I'm so blown away!! Well, now that you know how it all came together...I feel I must bring this story to a close. And, they lived happily ever after!

Story time with Missy!!

2006-06-17T23:22:00.000-04:00

You will never guess what happened to me this week. I am basically manager at my store as my manager is managing 2 other stores. This means my hours have changed from week nights and weekends to weekday shifts. I worked the evening shift on Wednesday night and my black BMW friend came in. We locked eyes before he walked through the door. We smiled and I melted!! Here's the story: He walk in...He said hello and paused asking me how I was doing? He mentioned how he hadn't seen me in the store for awhile...I explained about how my hours had changed. He jokingly asked why I hadn't called him about watching a movie to which I responded "You didn't give me your digits...getting them off the account is illegal and He could have me fired!" Without skipping a beat...He asked if I would want to hang out or go to moncton. He followed that with asking for my NUMBER!!!!!!!!!!!! As he left the store, he looked at me and said " You'll be hearing from me!" He didn't call on Wednesday night or Thursday but He did call on Friday. 2 day rule! Pretty sweet. Today is Saturday and I am in Fredericton visiting Amy. Does anyone want to know how I got here???? ANYONE? If you guess that I came to fredericton with my dream guy...with my black BMW friend...you guess RIGHT!!! Does anyone want to know how I'm going back to Sussex? Again, I'm travelling back with him. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME!! This trip to fredericton isn't even our movie date to moncton so I still have another date...I'll keep you updated!! YEAH YEAH YEAH!!

BMW Black Guy

2006-06-02T14:35:00.000-04:00

Not much to report...
Hasn't been in lately.
He must be off traveling all over the World again...Paris, maybe?
The times he has come in.
I have not been there!
Sadness...
Before this summer is out, I WILL HAVE A DATE!
Just you wait and see...

Much Needed Update...

2006-05-30T16:40:00.000-04:00

1. Still working at Movie Gallery... a much appreciated raise is coming my way!! God has blessed me through this...I went there originally for a job and God has very clearly made it a ministry!!
2. Still sub-letting at the Klob's...this could change as quickly as tomorrow.
3. Planning on staying in Sussex.
4. In the process of doing ministry with young woman. Praise God for He has answered my prayer! I have a joy and direction like never before!!!
5. Seeking God's will and way for my life. For His ways are higher than our ways and I must never forget that I can make my plans but the Lord determines my steps! The Lord has all the details worked out and I must follow and walk in them!

2006-05-12T23:02:00.000-04:00

Do you know what I really dislike??? Not having internet!!! I will be posting again soon...I promise you I have not forgotton you!! Ohhh...how I miss my blogger world!

I really should be studying but...

2006-04-23T21:33:00.000-04:00

My black/BMW friend came into the Movie Gallery today!!
(I really think I can start to call him my friend!)

Just wanted to give you a VISUAL of his BEAUTIFUL car

The first time Rich ever came in while I was working...3 things were in effect
1. He is HOT...Hottest customer I have ever served
2. He owns a beautiful car-BMW's are my favorite!
3. Hot Black Guy in SUSSEX, NB aka Dairy Town-Their Basketball tournment is actually called Dairy Town Classics.
For obvious reasons, I was overwhelmed by the whole situation. My reflection on the situation was all about his good looks and beautiful car. The more he comes in...I am beginning to see so much more.
Have you ever had someone look you in the eyes, give you a big smile and genuinely ask how you are? It is an amazing feeling...
This is exactly how Rich greets me every time he comes in!
(CALLING EVERYONE especially guys...I NEED YOUR INPUT HERE!)
Rich has been saying and doing different things that makes me wonder if he's...awwww... interested in me, maybe??? He can't be...but maybe??
Rich approached the counter, I rented him his movies but rather than him leaving he rested his arms on the counter and just carried on talking with me. He told me the reason he hasn't been in for a couple weeks...Poor guy was on a business trip in PARIS!!! That's after I mentioned he had a late charge-Paris is the reason. He just continue asking me questions about what I am doing this summer and if I was going to be around. He asked about what time I was getting off work...it seem like he was hinting towards hanging out...but I could be way off. He also randomly asked what my name was and told me his. I happen to turn around as he was driving off...He made it a point to look back into the store and wave at me. I thought that was a sweet added touch. Am I being some silly girl who "thinks" she's met the GUY OF HER DREAMS and being led to believe something that is really nothing or am I reading the situation pretty clearly and I can trust what my heart is leaning to believe?? What does all of that mean or does it mean anything at all?

If anything, before I wanted to go hang out with him because he is a hot black guy with a BMW (Seriously, he FIT my DREAM GUY status completely!) Now, it's more...His genuiness draws me in and his interesting life intrigues me! PARIS...that's amazing! I feel a little swept away... Okay, studying is calling my name...but I'm curious what you my blogger friends think?

Speak to me. Lord

2006-04-22T00:42:00.000-04:00

Do you know the conclusion I came to tonight...
Gospel music grips my soul like no other form of music
which leads me to believe...at my core, I'm really a Jamaican girl and I've spent way too much time in the great white north and I've lost all of my colouring! Jokes!!

Music is such an incredible gift of God!! It's always what my heart turns to in any season of my soul. I felt the quickening in my spirit to share these songs with you, my friends! These songs were given to speak to my heart tonight. I have found there will be many forms of distractions to rise up against what God has spoken in your heart. In those times, turn to the rock of your salvation and decide you will not give up cause He is your strength!

Can't Give Up Now lyrics

There will be mountains that I will have to climb
And there will be battles that I will have to fight
But victory all defeat, it's up to me to decide
But how can I expect to win If I never try.

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me

Never said there wouldn't be trials
Never said I would't fall
Never said that everything would go the way I want it to go
But when my back is against the wall
And i feel all hope is gone,
I'll just lift my head up to the sky
And say help me to be strong

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me

[Hook:]
No you didn't bring me out here to leave me lonely
Even when I can't see clearly
I know that you are with me(so I can't)

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
(Even if nobody understands me)
Nobody told me the road would be easy
(It's been a little rough)
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me

I Go to the Rock
Where do I go?
When there's nobody else to turn to
Who do I talk to?
When nobody wants to listen
Who do I lean on? Oh
When there is no foundation stable
I go to the rock
I know he is able, I go to the rock

[Chorus:]
I go to the rock of my salvation
I go to the stone that the builders rejected
I run to the mountain
And the mountain he stands by me
When the Earth all around me is sinking sand
On Christ the solid rock I stand
When I need a shelter I go to the rock

Where do I go, where do I go
When the storms of life are threatening
Who do I turn to when those winds of sorrow blow
And is there a refuge in the time of tribulation
Go to the rock, I know he is able
I go to the rock

[Repeat Chorus (2X)]

I go the rock when I need a friend
I can go to the rock
I go to the rock when I need a shelter
You can go to the rock
You can go to the rock
You can go to the rock
I can go
I go to the rock
I can go to the rock
I can go to the rock
I can go, I can go to the rock
I can go when I need some shelter
When I need a friend
I can go

And when the Earth around me is sinking sand
On Christ the solid rock I stand I can stand
When I need a friend
I go to the rock
I can go to the rock
Hey hey hey oh yeah

Here it is Amy and Jen...My list of Seven

2006-04-20T09:03:00.000-04:00

The Sevens

Seven things I would like to do before I die:
1. Date/Marry a Black guy!
2. Travelling all over the world WITH FRIENDS (Beach Resorts, Spa Resorts, 7 Wonders etc.)
3. Be a special moments photographer
4. Open a mentoring transition home for Young Woman
5. Meet Oprah and be a guest on her show
6. Write my own collection of cards for Hallmark
7. Write a book

Seven things I cannot do:
1. Drive a car alone (This will change in the near future!! YEAH)
2. Bend my right toes therefore cannot wear high heels!
3. Go a day or even an hour without chewing Gum
4. Keep my room clean
5. Pass a mirror and not look at myself
6. Go a day without music
7. Go a day without chocolate, candy or chips! BUT, especially chocolate!

Seven things I say most often:
1. Frig
2. Oh my word
3. like
4. Guess what??
5. Korrie said or I was talking to Korrie or Korrie and I...
6. YEAH!
7. Thank you for calling Movie Gallery. Home of the Double Feature Combo. Melissa Speaking. How can I help you?

Seven places I might like to visit before I die:
1. Jamaica
2. Italy
3. Australia
4. Africa
5. Bahamas
6. British Columbia
7. California-Price is Right

Seven Things I hate:
1. Throwing up (I don't just hate it...I fear it!)
2. Bad Breath
3. Whether I'm in New Brunswick or Ontario...I never have all of my friends around at one time so I'm always missing somebody.
4. Writing papers for Dr. Gavel!!!!!!!!
5. Males...haha!! JK...I have to live up to my "Man hater or Man eater" name!
6. Extreme temperatures: High Humidity or High Wind chill
7. Living with my parents

Seven Activities I enjoy:
1. SHOPPING!!! Clothes shopping even grocery shopping...anything shopping
2. Flying...it's amazing how fast you can get somewhere.
3. Sleeping in
4. Eating good cooked food-Turkey Dinner or King Fish and rice with a fried dumpling.
5. Sleepover's, girl's nights and chick flicks all roll up in one!!
6. Singing at the top of my lungs with the music blarring when nobody else is home.
7. Blogging

Seven friends who I want to do this list of sevens:
1. Tina
2. Kristie
3. Kristi
4. Heidi
5. Jess
6. Sasha
7. Michelle

Movie Gallery is Cursed!!

2006-04-18T18:02:00.000-04:00

I just have to get this off my chest...WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE??
Since I started at Movie Gallery in October, I have seen 8 people...
Count them:
1. Mary
2. Steve
3. Ryan aka Napolian dynamic
4. Kyle
5. Katy
6. Aaron
7. Kelly
AND Angela brings us to the lovely # 8 after working a total of 4 shifts

It's really not as bad as people think. There are times when I get bored or would rather do something else but I do enjoy it.

The only staff member who actually gave their two weeks notice and actually work all her shifts was Kelly. The rest have left us high and dry. Thanks! One girl left after about 4 shifts because she didn't like working alone...duh, you know that before you start! Someone left while I was home for Christmas leaving Joe to work open to close several days in a row. A ramdom guy quit just because he didn't feel like coming into work...ever again. One guy left because he was leaving to go out west. One particuliar girl was a little more drama than most people can handle. We had a girl moved away. A couple of them had issues with Joe and There was one girl who is still a mystery. She didn't want to come in because her boyfriend was visiting. What a lame reason for not showing up for work. Dumb! Grrr...I've seen so much drama that I think I could direct my own movie and rent it on our shelves.

So, this is my rant if you care to read it! All I want to know is, do people care anymore about how their actions affect other people?? Do they have any idea what this has done to their manager? It was his birthday yesterday...Happy Birthday Joe and by the way I quit! What a nice gift?

More Than Enough

2006-04-12T10:56:00.000-04:00

To all of you who were apart of this choir...You sounded absolutely beautiful and it was a joy to my heart to sit and take it in. My heart was blessed! As I look at this choir, I see many of my friends. You all are so incredibly special to me. I'm grateful to have you in my life! If you want copies of the videos and pictures, drop me a comment and I'll send them to you. I have video of Amazing Grace, Natasha's secret song to Lynn and More Than Enough!! ENJOY!!

2006-04-10T22:40:00.000-04:00

What an excellent weekend!!
We were graced with having Amy Smith come to town. Oh, how I've missed her!
We were touched with sheer delight to hear Natasha sing her way into our hearts at her Senior Recitial.
We were moved by the Spirit as the Chorale sang songs of the holiness and wonder of our Lord.

But, it finished with a bit of heart break for me...
I returned home from the chorale service and I was greeted by a telephone message.
If you know me at all...you know about my second family.
How incredibly special they are to me.
It all started with Korrie...
Korrie was a youth leader at my church.
I was 13 and she was 19.
What on earth would move her to want anything to do with me?
Love.
She would take me out for lunch, shopping...
I absolutely loved her.
But the neatest thing happened.
Next thing I knew I was starting to spend more time with her sister and her mom.
Her grandparents would pick me up and we'd travel the countryside together.
I cannot even begin to tell you what this family means to me.
They're a blessing right from Our Father's own hand to me.
Right, I was telling you about the telephone message.
Sorry...I sometimes get carried away when it comes to my Silver family.
I pressed the message button and heard Korrie's voice say Papa passed away.
I stood with there in a state of disbelief and listened to the message again.
Papa died...I felt like I could have crumbled to the floor.
Right now, I've done all I can do...I called and sent flowers.
Not sure why I'm writing all of this...
I have a bad case of Homesickness tonight.
What I'd give to be wrapped up in a Korrie hug.
Spend a Saturday afternoon sharing stories on the sofa with Linda.
Have a McDonalds outing with Grandpa and Grandma Snyder and watch as they cut their burger in half and share the meal.
I feel it...

Tonight, I sit here in awe of the blessing I have received in this life.
In memory of an honourable Man of God whom I highly respected and dearly loved.
And to my second family...I love you. My heart and Prayers are with you!
If you think of them...please say a prayer!

2006-04-04T16:23:00.000-04:00

Free-Ginny Owens

Turnin’ molehills into mountains,
Makin’ big deals out of small ones,
Bearing gifts as if they’re burdens,
This is how it’s been.
Afraid of coming out of my shell,
Too many things I can’t do too well,
Afraid I’ll try real hard, and I’ll fail--
This is how it’s been.
Till the day you pounded on my heart’s door,
And you shouted joyfully,
You’re not a slave anymore!

Chorus:
You’re free to dance-
Forget about your two left feet
And you’re free to sing-even joyful noise is music to me
You’re free to love,
’cause I’ve given you my love,
And it’s made you free
I have set you free!

My mind finds hard to believe
That you became humanity and changed the course of history,
Because you loved us so.
And my heart cannot understand
How you accept me as I am,
But you say you’ve always had a plan,
And that’s all I need to know.
So when I am consumed with what the world will say,
Then you’re singing to me, as you remove my chains-

Bridge:
Free from worry, free from envy and denial
Free to live, free to give, free to smile

This has been my anthem...my testimony!
It's a great song to sing at the top of your lungs into a pop bottle as if it were a microphone and dance around the room pretending your a rock star.
Not that I do that or anything...HA!
But if I did, it would be a real great past time when nobody else is home! :)

On another note:
Inspiration from Kristie Benson's Blog-"Things I love about today"
For my top 3:
1. I have today off from work
2. Since I have the day off, I got to attend chapel
3. I sang like a rock star cause my roommate weren't home!!

HOT GUY MAGNET!

2006-03-30T22:20:00.000-05:00

Hasn't the weather been beautiful?? Perfect day to go for a drive in a convertible! Did I...No. Would I...Yes! My black friend with the BMW convertible came into the Movie Gallery again today. There was some flirting going on...pretty sweet! Memoirs of Geisha came out on Tuesday. It's the movie he's wanted to see but he came in today to get it. If he had come in Tuesday, I would have missed him but no he comes only when I work! Funny, how that happens...I'm a HOT GUY MAGNET! Kelly (my co-worker) is rather jeolous because she generally get the creepy guys and I get all the cute ones!! HAHA! So, as he brought the movie to the counter, I jokingly said..."I was totally going to call you up and tell you I had the movie on reserve for you" He said, "you should've!" He asked, "Have you seen it?" I said, "No, but I could have on the weekend." He replied, "it was here on the weekend and you didn't hook a brother up." I said, "I was way too bashful to do that." He smiled and I smiled. Life is good!

The many faces of Movie Gallery

2006-03-26T23:01:00.000-05:00

I have a story to share...
Let's back up to 3 weeks ago today so today's event makes sense.
I was working a 9am-4pm shift when my co-worker Kelly came in and asked if I could stay until 5 instead. I agreed to stay but wasn't overly thrilled about it. Around 1, a guy entered the store who I've served before that I thought was incredibly cute and looked somewhat familiar! I could never figure out what it was about him that seemed familiar until I took a good look at his eyes and immediately I saw my first love Chris Carter. As "Shawn" left the store, I was sweep back to those crazy days of love and I could not wipe the smile off my face. My day went on.

It gets better!! Come 4:20, my shift is nearly over. Two things that could happen somewhere else but NEVER Sussex...HAPPENED! I look out the window to see a HOT black guy approaching the door to the Movie Gallery. By HOT, I mean He was wearing black dress shoes, jeans, black fitted shirt and a freakin Black leather jacket. He was fine, fine, fine!! He enters the store and I say a very nervous "Hi" and smiled...He asks me a question about a movie coming soon and I giggled through the entire sentence. He begins to look around and I go grab a pile of movies for shelving. He smelled sooo good when he passed me. It was one of those moments when you think I could just lay my head on your shoulder and stay there for awhile! As I was walking back up to the counter, I looked out the window and what do I see...(You're not going to believe me because it's Sussex) I saw a Silver Soft top BMW convertible sedan in the parking lot. I immediately thought, ohhh if that's his car...THAT'S HOT! (For if you know me well enough you would know I love my BMW's though I may never own one. ) After about 20 minutes, He walks up to the counter and I'm pretty sure written all over my face is...YOU'RE HOT and I'M TERRIFIED!! HAHA! Just for the record, He's not from Sussex. He's a fredericton guy and we all know everything good in New Brunswick comes from Fredericton...it said so on his account information. We had some brief small talk and He smiled at me. hmmm... He left and I began to "skip" around the store. I KNOW...I'm such a giddy girl! I wanted to share this story but I thought for sure no one would believe me. Until around 5:30, Amy Tucker-O'Sheilds came into the store and said she saw this BMW convertible at the stop sign and I finished her sentence by saying "and it was a HOT black guy driving it." So everyone, it's official...I have a witness to my story.

Fast forward to today...He came in again. This time I was a little more calm and a little more cool. Well, that is until he left! LOL He again was looking for the same movie but it's not out on shelves until Tuesday however I could have rented on Friday. My idea was this...Take his number, call him and tell him who I was and offer to share my rental priviliages with him. Make a move and basically ask him on a date! Good idea...I think so. I love Movie Gallery if only for the perks such as getting a date! Maybe just maybe I might get a date with this guy or at least I can dream! Hope you liked my story...

2006-03-21T22:24:00.000-05:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOUT OUT TO JO SHULAW!!
I enjoyed a wonderful conversation with her today
I consider her to be one of my favorite people on the face of this earth!!
**EXCITING NEWS**
She may be joining the blogger world very soon!
Keep an eye on my blogger friend list for her!

Must See...

2006-03-08T23:22:00.000-05:00

This Video is the authentic Avril I know and loved...My heart goes out to her!
There is nothing like losing someone you love and this video captures the heartbeat of it!

Click on "Must See" Title to watch video!

2006-02-26T12:48:00.000-05:00

God is doing a NEW THING everywhere!!
We are hearing the testimony of Brothers and Sisters...
Services are not ending on time...
Single-mothers are being given money by the handfulls at altars...
People leaving ministry to birth new ones...
I am on the fast track with God because God is working in the "Suddenly" Here and Now!
It's a New Time, It's a New Day, It's a New Season!!
Catch the fire and jump on in! I double dog dare you!

2006-02-19T23:07:00.000-05:00

Lord I come before your throne of Grace,
I find rest in your presence and fullness of Joy.
In worship and in wonder,
I behold your face singing what a faithful God have I

What a faithful God have I
What a faithful God
What a faithful God have I
You are faithful in every way

Lord of mercy, you have heard my cry
Through the storm you're the beckon
my song in the night
In the shelter of your wings
hear my hearts reply singing what a Faithful God have I

The Powerful verse:
Lord, All Sovereign granting peace from Heaven
LET ME COMFORT THOSE WHO SUFFER
WITH THE COMFORT YOU HAVE BEEN
And I WILL TELL OF YOUR GREAT LOVE FOR AS LONG AS I LIVE
Singing what a faithful God have I

Do I ever loved that Lyrics have a way of saying exactly what my heart cannot put into words!! I've heard this song a million times quite literally since I was on Pursuing 7 the year it was written...but it's like I've finally heard it for the very first time! I have watched and listened as different people have shared their passions and purposes for their lives knowing in my heart if the question were asked of me I'd pull a complete blank. In a series of different happenings in my life recently, I can say I have found a freedom from this dark cloud of purposelessness and been released into my Call! My exhausted search for direction and purpose has been dealt with. It is my ANSWERED PRAYER!! My vision: comfort those who suffer with the comfort my Heavenly Father has given and tell of this love forever! What this will look like is still a pretty fresh idea that I will only share as it unfolds...I just have to say God is faithful to do what He said He'll do! My heart as found it's true home! Believe, Expect and Seek first His kingdom and all these things shall be added unto you!

2006-02-15T00:46:00.000-05:00

When Nothing Satisfies
Jennifer Knapp

When it rains or it shines on this pillow of mine
I will lift up my head to the sky
So I have chance to see
Where my hope has come from
Know there's nothing that I can't abide

When Nothing Satisfies You
When nothing satisfies you
When nothing satisfies you
Hold my hand

Send forth Your Light Lord,
And send forth Your Truth
Let them guide me to Your Holy Place
Then will I go to the Altar of God
To my Joy, my Delight and my Strength

When Nothing Satisfies You
When nothing satisfies you
When nothing satisfies you
Hold my hand

Why are You so downcast o my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God
My Savior, my King
My Savior, my King

When Nothing Satisfies You
When nothing satisfies you
When nothing satisfies you

Monday Night Amusement...

2006-02-13T19:21:00.000-05:00

2006-02-13T15:16:00.000-05:00

This is an email I received this morning that was especially encouraging to me...
It is my hope that it is a blessing to you too!

Work or Real Value
Exodus 29:44-45, Levitcus 9:23

So I will consecrate the tabernacle of meeting and the altar. I will also consecrate both Aaron and his sons to minister to Me as priests. I will dwell among the children of Israel and will be their God... And Moses and Aaron went into the tabernacle of meeting, and came out and blessed people.

Too many people simply fall into a comfortable niche in life and stay there rather than pursue goals of signifcance. Leaders can't afford to do that. Leaders must ask themselves whether they want survival, success or significance. The best leaders desire significance and expend their time and energy in pursuit of their dreams.

Moishe Rosen teaches a mental exercise that's and efective tool in helping a person identify his dreams. He asks a person to fill inthe blanks:

If I had ___________________
I would ___________________
The idea is that if you had anything you wanted, unlimited time, unlimited money, unlimited information, unlimited staff, what would you do? Your answer to that question is your dream. Acting on your dreams add significance to your life.

This morning my dear sister, I want you to contemplate those questions. God wants to make your dreams come true, and if it is God's will, I will help make that a reality in your life, but you need to define your dream. Over the next few months, ask God to help you put to pen that dream, even if all the puzzle pieces don't fit or make sense. Think outside the box, take all the limits off for we are going for it all, in Jesus Christ Name, our Savior.

I don't want to live in survival mode anymore. I don't want success or money. I want purpose, promise and a life of significance. I want to make a difference in peoples lives, for only the things we do for Christ will last. Let's create an everlasting legacy in Jesus' Name. From this day on ask God to help you live each day with His purpose in mind.
Peace and Blessings to you today and Expect a Miracle!

I ask you to ponder for yourself
If I had_________
I would_________

2006-02-08T16:33:00.000-05:00

Polls are fun...
Thank you to all who voted!
The Kitten wins "by a landslide" Quote by Tina
New One...
Where should I go?
Toronto, Dartmouth, Fredericton, Kingston or Sussex?
PENNSYLVANIA?? So I can get deported again! HAHA!-Take a guess who suggested Pennsylvania! Hint Hint...she's sitting beside me! She's absolutely amazing and wonderful and I love her to pieces...she's beautiful and charming. She is thoughtful because she never forgets to pick me up at work. Oh she's the one with the milk chocolate and chocolate truffle hair. I wouldn't want you to be confused on who I was talking about...
Okay, so where should I go next on the journey of my life?

2006-02-03T13:12:00.000-05:00

I have been told recently that these animals look like me...
So, I'm taking votes from you--my blogger friends
Which animal do you think most resembles me?

2006-02-02T11:59:00.000-05:00

I am officially the "Big" cheese of all my friends!
In other words, I'm sappy, emotional and use silly phrases!
Oh well!! I'm a dork but you love me anyways!!

2006-02-01T22:40:00.000-05:00

“Girlfriends bring out so much in us that no man ever could…They understand us, they cry with us, they shop with us, laugh until we…well, you understand. We are sisters who speak the same language, like the same movies, have similar dreams and goals and eat more than we should. Viva la Friendship.”
“Think about how you are connecting with other woman. God wants us to connect with each other, to celebrate our “womanly-ness” Our special gifts, intuitions, and compassion for others that He has reserved just for us…for such a time as this.”
“Who are you investing in on a regular basis? Who is investing in your walk with God? Who knows you well enough, outside your own family, to help you through the tough times? Who do you call when you need to vent, need a shoulder to cry on, when you’re busting out with news you just have to share? We need someone to connect with. Another woman. God made us this way.”
-A Woman's Magazine!
I love my girls! My day has been filled with my friends! Tina and Heidi visited me at work! I talked to Jo Shulaw and Kristie Ingersoll online. Korrie sent me a very sweet e mail! My heart is filled with joy as I lay my head down to sleep! I am blessed!

2006-01-29T22:17:00.000-05:00

Do you ever feel a longing for home?
Not the living at home with your parents and being single until your 35 kind of longing...oh, I pray that is not my destiny!!
I'm talking about finding your own first home, finding your city or town, finding your church...so many places and so many choices--which one do you pick?
I want to find a place that fits who I am and what God wants in my life!
I want to find a place where my heart can truly feel true contentment,rest and lacking nothing!
I want to find a place where I can truly feel at home again!
Praying God's wisdom will guide yours and my heart to find a place like this of His own design for I know it's His longing to give to me and to all of us the desires of our hearts!!

2006-01-26T23:42:00.000-05:00

God is faithful to His Word and that which He has spoken for your life will come to pass. Only believe!

Shalom be unto you --- nothing missing, and nothing broken in your life!
Thank you Pastor Meikle for speaking God's heart to me!

2006-01-25T11:13:00.000-05:00

If you can find Him...You can find life!!

2006-01-19T20:12:00.000-05:00

I have to say that I am grateful for the different spiritual gifts God chooses to gives us. I am grateful for the moments when God allows me to feel a certain way and prompts me to follow it! I could talk to someone for 5 minutes and think in detail about the conversation for the entire afternoon. Oh my reflective nature! There are times when I feel a prompting from the Lord to say something, to write something or to do something and I find myself wondering should I or should I not. Ever been there?

I spoke with one of my best friends on Sunday night. What an incredible talk! I am praising the Lord with her as I learned she has led 2 people to Christ within the last week. She's walking in her call and overflowing with the love of the Lord. I didn't want the phone call to end. All day Monday and into the evening I felt this certain prompting to write her an email. 11K later...the email was finished and I struggled to know if I should or shouldn't send it. I began to question God's leading, myself and my good old sappy ways but I push that aside and sent it anyway...Sappiness and all! God came through... It was what needed to be said and there was no question later what the Lord was trying to do!

I had another experience when I felt like I needed to apologize for something I hadn't done but was the right and heartfelt decision to make. I was terrified! I didn't know what this small act would do until I saw how it broke down all perceived thoughts and restored to us a friendship. God wanted to use my decernment and senstivity to open a door into another's heart! I've never been more thankful to the Lord for allowing an experience like this happen.

I write all of this because there have been times when I've questioned my gifts from God and how He could use me...but this shows me that God is faithful to use whatever we have for His greater good. I just never know who God has for me to speak into until I am willing to open my mouth. I just never know what I have that I can give to someone else until I willing to drop it from my hands. I say all of this to encourage you to follow God's leading, follow your heart and say what's on your heart! It can make all the difference in someone's life including yours. Remember that! Allow God to prompt you to action and love towards another today! Experience what God has lined up for you today!
Love each other with genuine affection,and take delight in honoring each other. Romans 12:10!

2006-01-15T00:01:00.000-05:00

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
-Tim McGraw

“When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.”

"Promise you won't forget me, because if I thought you would, I'd never leave."
~Winnie the Pooh~

"If I had one gift that I could give you, my friend, it would be the ability to see yourself as others see you, because only then would you know how extremely special you are."

"The greatest good you can do for another is not just share your riches, but to reveal to them, their own."

"No love, no friendship, can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever."

It's the ones you can call up at 4:00 a.m. that really matter.-- Marlene Dietrich

Books, like friends, should be few and well chosen.
-Samuel Paterson

In the words of Jonathan to David...
I say to you, my friends...I love you like I love my own soul!!

Something to think about...

2006-01-14T13:34:00.000-05:00

The Center of the Bible
This is pretty strange or odd how it worked out this way.
What is the shortest chapter in the Bible?
Answer - Psalms 117
What is the longest chapter in the Bible?
Answer - Psalms 119
Which chapter is in the center of the Bible?
Answer - Psalms 118
Fact: There are 594 chapters before Psalms 118
Fact: There are 594 chapters after Psalms 118
Add these numbers up and you get 1188

What is the center verse in the Bible? Answer - Psalms 118:8
Does this verse say something significant about God's perfect will for
our lives?
The next time someone says they would like to find God's perfect will
for their lives and that they want to be in the center of His will, just
send them to the center of His Word!

Psalms 118:8 (NKJV) "It is better to trust in the LORD than to put
confidence in man."Now isn't that odd how this worked out (or was God in the center of it)?

Here is the promised update...

2006-01-09T20:20:00.000-05:00

What an eventful couple days!!
Sunday...Woke up and the sun was bright...I knew it would be a beautiful day!
I could not make up my mind what I was going to wear.
I changed my sweater and then needed to change my pants to match the new sweater! HAHA! The life of a girl getting ready for a date...
I met up with Dave at Subway.
What a gentleman...
I didn't pay for lunch, bowling, snacks, movie (well, do I ever?) , supper, and I beat him to the ticket counter so I could at least pay for my hockey ticket! Hee Hee!
Doors were held open for me...
I appreciate the thought and the kindness!
We enjoyed three strings of Bowling...We both found our future careers...Pro Bowlers! What do you mean a score of 65 and 50 isn't pro bowling status??? HAHA! Regardless of score, we had one good time and I haven't laughed that hard in a LONG time! We shared in a movie with my roommates in the early evening. This was a chance for everyone to meet. I think they would say I found a real good guy! Who would have thought all this could come from a simple meeting on a plane? Enjoyed the hockey...it was neat to introduce him to more friends! To all of you who are hoping he has single friends...trust me I'm workin on it!! First choice goes out to those of you who asked me to ask before you even met him. haha. You know who you are! haha!
I had a wonderful time and I excitably agreed to another date next Sunday afternoon to enjoy a flick in Saint John. After the day I had yesterday like I would have said no! What an incredible guy!

This is the first moments to myself in days...I started at 7am this morning. Assistant Manager is a tough job. I rearranged the entire store...ahhh...it's nice to do now what I love! BLOG! Tommorow is a nice day off! Looking forward to spending some time with friends who are back at Bethany! I love you, my Friends!

Chance Encounter...

2006-01-04T18:18:00.000-05:00

Do I ever have a story for you, my blogger friends!
Let me set the stage for you...
Diana and I left the house at 5:30 am on Friday December 16 so I could catch the 7:00 plane to Toronto. (If you know either of us at all...you know how desperately hard this was for us!) We arrived in good time and I went through security with no troubles at all. I boarded the plane and got all comfy in my seat! Bonus...I didn't have a passenger in the seat beside me! I could stretch out and take up all three seats instead of one. ANYWAYS, I can't tell you which one of us spoke first but a nice and cute guy who sat in front of me kept me company and we shared stories all the way to Toronto. He is originally from the Greater Toronto Area but is living in Riverview for the time being. We chatted about places we've been and people in our lives. I absolutely love flying and meeting different people along the way. I love seeing where people are from and where their going. Some people live very interesting lives and I am inspired by so many people that I meet. We left the plane, I wish him a Merry Christmas and we went our separate ways!

Fast-Forward to January 4, 2006. Today. Movie Gallery. I had just reached in the drop box and pulled out two or three movies when I heard someone open the door. I looked up and both of us did a double take! (You know what's coming, don't you?) The person who walked into the store was my friend from the plane! He recently bought a truck from a dealership here in Sussex and had come back to get it serviced! He needed to kill a couple hours so he thought he'd wander around in our "big" sussex mall. I had not told him where I worked so the fact of us meeting up again was such a chance encounter...Kind of like a "Serendipity moment" I thought this only happened in the movies!

Once again, I enjoyed nearly two hours of his company today. He made my day! My day started off slow and boring; He made it so much fun!! He has such a sweet smile! He does have a name...it's David! The best part of the day was when David kissed me!! LOL! Just kidding! He did ask for my phone number AND He did ask me out on a date! I'm going on a date! I am going on a date! YEAH, I'm going on a date!! So excited! So looking forward to Sunday! More to come...

Sweet Deal...

2006-01-03T22:24:00.000-05:00

I am being promoted to assistant manager and being given a raise in my pay!
What an awesome start to the NEW YEAR!

UGLY cry....a moment like no other!

2005-12-30T23:37:00.000-05:00

I just encounter a moment that defies all other moments in my life.
I've been to mission's conventions weeks at Bethany...
I've been to those Sunday missionary nights all churches have about once a year!
I've seen the pictures
I've heard the raise support speeches
If truth be known, these attempts just didn't give the mission field justice.
I cannot think of a single moment in any of these services that caused me to want to go or want to do anything more than what I am doing thus far.
Sadly, I do admit what I have done is much less than I've been capable of.
Here I sit, my only witness is My Lord and well Frank...
I've been moved into an ugly cry
I've been moved to see a world I've been blinded to
I've been moved to tears not over my own foolish life like so many times before
I've been moved to tears over the heart-break of precious children in a place I have really never considered. I've begun to feel myself get lost in those brown eyes!
I've been moved to tears over my arrogance towards what's really happening to the world around me. It's now that I truly want to see...
Before this moment, I cried watching dumb chick-flicks...
I sobbed watching the Toronto Humaine Society TV show...
But never for "World Vision" or "Mission Convention weeks"
I've always wondered why...

For Christmas, I was given a very special gift
My heart leaped up inside of me.
I was given "The Oprah Winfrey Show 20th Anniversary Collection"
Little did I know on December 31st 2005...I would find a "aha" moment on disc 6 of the collection!
Oprah in South Africa.
I've said I'd probably go on a mission trip someday.
But often times, someday never comes...
Call me crazy, roll your eyes at me because this moment was channelled through Oprah BUT I tell you the truth...someday will be sometime this year before the clock strikes midnight on December 31st 2006!
One year to do more than I have ever done in the life of a child.
One year to tell them of Jesus' love for them!
One year to feed the mouth to which they speak from!
One year to hold one, two, three...children so tight!
One year to lift a child's head and speak life into them.
One year to hold their hand in mine as we dance around in a circle.
One year to see smiles cross their tiny faces!!
One year to reach a children unknown to me now but will never leave my heart after this year is through.
This is what I declare over my life!

What can I say...I love the blogger world

2005-12-29T15:03:00.000-05:00

I've never been one to journal. If I did journal, I never really stayed with it. So I've been thinking...what is it about blogging that keeps me faithful to it? There are times when I don't write for a couple days but I check it and read other's blogs almost on a daily basis. I turn on my computer and I decide between hotmail and the insights of missy.
I think I've come to some conclusions:

One: Blogging isn't just journaling-it's pictures, it's songs, it's words, it's venting sessions, it's more than my thought's, it's your thought's and my thought's put together.

Two: This might just be me but I'm expressive and emotional. I'm introverted and extroverted all at the same time. I'm known to hold my thoughts and feelings inside and yet wear them all out on my sleeve. I want to be undiscovered and I want to be discovered almost simultaneously. Which makes me think that blogging is some sort of tool that gives me the expressive platform to which I can say as much or as little as my heart so desires!

Three: CONNECTION! I find myself reconnecting with friends from the past and connecting with people I hardly knew but wish I had! I find myself enjoying what I've always loved most and that is getting to know people deeper than on a surface level. I am finding a new found appreciation of people and friends through this forum.

Four: I find myself in a period of my life where I'm realizing the deep blessing of friendships and the people in my life. Maybe I'm realizing that these friendship are moving in different directions and that blogging somehow makes these friendships stay closer to me. Blogging keeps me in the loop. Blogging tells me of the special times and the not so special times. Blogging just feels right. What can I say...I love the blogging world!! What is blogging to you?

A beautiful but short vacation....

2005-12-21T15:12:00.000-05:00

The Plane ride was NICE and QUICK...I enjoy chatting with people on the plane!! People are interesting!
My Time with my mentor and friend Korrie was REFRESHING and WONDERFUL...I wouldn't have traded that time together for anything. Just what this heart needed! I am so glad I missed that first bus!
My Time with my big sister was FUN and GOOD...A friendship is being formed...never thought I'd see the day!
The Wedding was incredibly BEAUTIFUL and BREATH-TAKING...What an honour to be apart of it!
My Time with my family was GREAT and EXCITING...Auntie Missy loves being an Auntie to the cutiest babies in the whole wide world. You'll see...They have my heart!!
The Plane ride back was FRUSTRADING and PAINFUL...Lost luggage and feels to be a blown ear-drum!! Stupid Saint John and Montreal airports...Jo Graham knows my pain!!

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!! It's all about LOVE!

2005-12-14T23:25:00.000-05:00

Here is the "Wedding Vows!"
I have the honour of being "Wedding Officiate" for a day!!
If you think of me on Saturday...please send up a prayer for me!
Though I am calm and collected right now...I am sure this will not be the case on Saturday! I want it to be perfect for my sister and if it's not...well it's been nice to know you!!! haha! Am I ever use to Christian weddings...if you do choose to read these vows you will quickly notice like I did that's all about love, love, love!! No Jesus...sad but I'm not about to force the issue! Jenn would win-don't all big sister's win?? Well, enjoy...Love, Love , Love!!

My name is Melissa Mowbray and I have the privilege of performing this marriage ceremony today.

On behalf of Jennifer and Ben, welcome and thank you for being here. They are delighted that you are here today to share in their joy during this wonderful moment in their lives.

We are gathered here today to celebrate one of life’s greatest moments, to give recognition to the worth and beauty of love, and to add our best wishes to the words which shall unite Jennifer and Ben in marriage.

To find love, we must first take the chance of risking our heart to another. For it is only then, in the very act of offering ourselves, that true love is discovered. The path of love is never easy.
Yet it’s in the ups and downs, the times of trouble and need that together a bond is forged, strong enough to withstand whatever the road ahead may bring.
Love is about knowing when it’s time to lead and when it’s time to follow, but mostly it’s about two people walking through life side by side.

I now have a question for each of you.
First you Ben;

Ben you have chosen Jennifer to be your wife. Will you love and respect her? Will you be honest with her always and will you stand by her through whatever may come? (Answer: I will)

Jennifer you have chosen Ben to be your husband. Will you love and respect him? Will you be honest with him always and will you stand by him through whatever may come? (Answer: I will)

Ben, please repeat after me:

In the presence of our family and friends I Ben choose you Jennifer to be my wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and health, in joy and in sorrow, to love and to cherish, and to be faithful to you alone. This is my solemn vow.

Now, Jennifer, please repeat after me;

In the presence of our family and friends I Jennifer choose you Ben to be my husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and health, in joy and in sorrow, to love and to cherish, and to be faithful to you alone. This is my solemn vow.

May I have the rings please.

Ben, please repeat after me;

Jennifer, take this ring as a symbol of my love for you. I promise to accept you for who you are, my best friend, the one I live for, the one I care for, and the one I love with all my heart, this day and forever

Jennifer, please repeat after me;

Ben, take this ring as a symbol of my love for you. I promise to accept you for who you are, my best friend, the one I live for, the one I care for, and the one I love with all my heart, this day and forever

Now may those who wear these rings live in love all their days.

Now may the love which has brought you together continue to grow and enrich your lives. May you meet with courage the problems which arise to challenge you and may your relationship always be one of love and trust.
May the happiness you share today be with you always and may every word you have pledged here be a living truth in your lives.

Jennifer and Ben, we have heard your promise to share your lives in marriage, we recognize and respect the covenant of marriage you have made here, before each one of us as witnesses.

Therefore, in the honesty and sincerity of what you have said and done you may now seal your wedding vows with a kiss.

CHRISTMAS BANQUET!!

2005-12-10T17:22:00.000-05:00

It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year!!
I Love you, my Friends...all of you!!
(Picture or No Picture!)
Merry Christmas!!!

Your eyes are not deceiving you...

2005-12-02T01:32:00.000-05:00

This is not a joke...At the age of 24 I finally got my LICENCE-Class 7!!
What a great day in the life of Missy Mowbray!
It's been a long time coming but I think I'm ready for it now!!
Here's the kicker...I failed the first time around and a young 16 year girl writing the same test passed!
I felt like a HUGE loser!
Oh...it gets worst...
A young teenage guy I taught at youth group had an appointment for a road test!
Yes, I now felt like an ever bigger loser!!
But, now I can laugh at it my humiliations!
It is what it is!
Just wait til I take that driver's training course...hahaha
All that matters is I hold a card in my hand that states I can drive
I made it a point to drive today with Sasha and Tina!
To drive home and practice parking in the Sussex Wesleyan lot!
Backing up into a parking space..yeah...definately gotta work on that!
(If there had been cars on either side of me..I would have definately taken them out!!)
Definately have to learn how to ease on the gas and brake!
But...for the first time "Legally" driving. (hee hee!)
I think I did better than most people would give me credit for!
Today spells FREEDOM for me!!!

One phone call makes all the difference...

2005-11-29T13:50:00.000-05:00

Yeah..so I thought I might not be able to go home for my sister's wedding or for Christmas. Oh how things change!! Not only I am I going home for my sister's wedding...I am in the Wedding! You're probably thinking right now... Missy is a bridemaid in her sister's wedding. Yes, that would be a nice thought.

But NO...I am actually officiating my sister's wedding ceremony! AND YES...it will be legal! All the paperwork will be filled out by someone else with a licence and I'll be standing in to carry out the ceremony. You have no idea how big of a joke this has been between my sister and I. Did I ever think it would happen? Never!! Am I excited about it? Yes! Am I nervous? I'm sure I will be! Does this make for a pretty sweet story? I think so... It seems so strange considering my previous experiences with family weddings!

I've seen weddings were it is their pastor, their father, their friend officiate a wedding ceremony but their little sister. Can't say I've ever saw that before!

feeling almost sick...

2005-11-26T00:13:00.000-05:00

Christmas seems to be coming quicker than I feel prepared for. I am feeling very anxious about how Christmas plans will turn out. The weekend before Christmas is my sister's wedding and then there's Christmas. It could be really bad news if I miss either event. I already know what 3 months of silence feels like and it could happen again. I'm needing 10 days off and I'm not sure if this is going to be possible. What have I gotton myself into?? WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING?? Somedays, I feel so lost and confused about what I really should be doing with my life...There's a hundred reasons why I feel I should be in New Brunswick and yet a hundred reasons why I feel should be in Ontario. I don't feel like I have a home anywhere. No plan, No direction and No real passion. Deep Breath...

To You I give my life
Not just the parts I want to
To You I sacrifice
these dreams I hold on to

Your thoughts higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

To You I give you my future
As long as it may last
To You I give my present
To You I give my past

" I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you. Do not fear; I will help you." Isaiah 41:13.

Look around-and be distressed
Look within-and be depressed
Look to Jesus-and be at rest!

God is "able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine"
A breakdown of this verse:
What I ask
All I ask
More than all I ask
Immeasurably more than all I ask
What I can imagine
All I imagine
More than all I imagine
Immeasurably more than all I ask or imagine!

He is sufficient enough for me! I can now put my head down and close my eyes! Goodnight!

2005-11-17T02:40:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I really wonder about my shopping habits!
I just love spending money and getting new stuff.
I can remember times where I knew if I could just go shopping
I'd just plain feel better!
Does this make me a shopaholic?
Living in Toronto was like shopping heaven for me.
The subway I travelled on everyday had a mall stop.
Many of times, I jump off to get a shopping fix.
Once I spent 3 hours in an Old Navy.
I just had to spend the gift card I had.
I came out empty handed and heavy hearted.
There are people who can do the window shopping thing...
Nothing irriates me more than seeing something really nice
or WORST on SALE and not being able to buy it!
So, ME and Window Shopping don't go well together!! HAHA!
I remember my summer team days when I was tired and cranky
all I wanted to do was shop.
This may seem retarded but I cried over the fact that I couldn't go shopping.
YES, I am an emotional shopper!
I confess!
I love it and I crave it!
Admit it...you feel the same way too!
Although, I have to admit that I've been VERY surprised at
how many people don't like shopping.
I find myself thinking...
how is that even possible?
Stick me in a store...doesn't matter what kind...
Walmart, Old Navy, Hallmark, Reitmans or even Sobey's
and watch me closely!
I look like I'm on a mission
Kinda like on"The Amazing Race"
I will have a zoning gaze in my eyes and the determination to find a deal.
Yes, I am an emotional shopper
I confess to you again!
I think I need to just become someone's personal shopper.
I could do what I love and spend someone else's money!
I know just the person...OPRAH!!
I really need the Harpo hook up!
She could throw in a spa day too...I'd be about it!
Too shop or not too shop...that is the question...
Some people read, Some people watch TV, some people love going for a walk...
I'd rather shop! HAHA!!
One last thing:
For those of you who resonate with this blog
I am always up for a good shopping trip with friends!
hmmm...let me see, I know of one thing that is right up there with shopping
IT'S CALLED SLEEPING!
Something I should be doing now rather than writing this blog entry.
Now, you didn't think I was going to get all spiritual on you.
My Priorities:
OKAY OKAY...God, Love Ones, shopping, sleeping
OKAY OKAY...sometimes it's God, love ones, sleeping, shopping
OKAY OKAY...so it wasn't my last point
OKAY OKAY...this one IS my last point:
I love shopping
Yes Yes I do
I love shopping
Now how about you?

(My Best thoughts happen in the middle of the night!)

2005-11-16T22:26:00.000-05:00

Breath of Heaven
Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven
Light in my darkness
Pour over me your holiness
For you are Holy
Breath of Heaven

This is like my breath of fresh air today!
I'm not sure what it is with music but it reaches the depths of me!
So, Lord, I am thankful to you for creating music and gifting people to use it for your glory!

Some gut-wretching lyrics I feel rise to meet me...

2005-11-15T15:02:00.000-05:00

BECAUSE OF YOU-KELLY CLARKSON

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learn to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way and it's not too long til you point it out.
I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile everyday
My heart can't possibly break because it wasn't whole to start with

I was so young...

Because of you
I tried to be good at everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in.

ENOUGH SAID!

She's coming home very soon...

2005-11-13T12:43:00.000-05:00

This blog entry is dedicated to my friend Kristie! Kristie has been in the beautiful state of Georgia and it has treated her well but I am so happy that she soon will be returning!! Kristie, enjoy your final days in Georgia! Love you! You are special to me!

Some really great pictures...Some really great FRIENDS!!!

2005-11-10T23:20:00.000-05:00

I can hardly take it all in...

2005-11-06T21:38:00.000-05:00

Vulnerability...Thank you Cory for speaking a word...one single word from the Lord
Vulnerability-here it is...as raw as it comes!

I am completely and utterly loved by my Creator-He calls me His beloved...Thank you Natasha for being God's vessal yet AGAIN in my life!!

Can I just say how grateful I am to my Creator for marking out a path for me! Can I just say how grateful I am that He has place significant milestone moments in my path to bring me to this place. This place of knowing and loving Him at a level so much deeper than this soul has ever dared to grasp. I can hardly take it all in...

Psalm 139
O Lord, you have examed my heart and YOU KNOW everything about me.
YOU KNOW when I sit down or stand up. YOU KNOW my every thought
when far away. YOU chart out the path ahead of me and tell me where
to stop and rest. Every moment YOU KNOW where I am. YOU KNOW
what I going to say even before I say it, Lord. You both preceed and follow
me.

I can hardly take it all in...
Is it really possible that one can be fully known and fully understood and still be completely and utterly loved at this most intimate place of their soul? I can...you can!! All that you are can be exposed...walls can crumble...the search light can shine on in...and still you are completely and utterly loved! What a thought! This is the love I've been waiting for all my life!! AND it's always been right there. God made all the delicate inner parts of my body. He knit me together and watch me being formed. All my days and moments were laid out before Him. I am fearfully and wonderfully made! He's always been there. He has been there clothed in direction when the way was unknown. He been there clothed in mercy as my frustraded and anger filled words reached His throne. He's been there clothed in compassion for a heart that was crush under the pressure. AND It was His love that compelled Him. It was His love that moved Him. It was His love that keeps making a way for me...keeps on drawing me in...keeps my life from coming unglued! He's my Abba Father without reservation. He's the healer of my heart.
I can hardly take it all in...

Faith-Jason Upton
Let Faith arise
Deepest Parts of my being, Lord
In the most broken parts
where Love ones have failed me
where Heros have failed me
Let my Faith arise!!

I say no to the discouragment that keeps me down
I say no to the things that keep me back from you
This broken heart inside of me broken in so many pieces by so many circumstances
I say no to letting it stay that way
I am learning to trust that you are not hurting me
I am believing you still love me-brokenness and all
I believe you will restore me
I believe that you will awaken my soul
That faith will arise again
I am believing like a little child
I am going to dance, love again, laugh again, cry again.
Have joy joy on the inside.

You are my creator, your my comfort
You are the one that never deserted me
Daddy I lift my hands up to you Lord.
I am learning to trust you with faith like a child
Joy again like a child
I'm not going to let those bullets come down and hurt me anymore.
I am rising up a sheild of faith and a sword of the Lord
I am believing on your Word, Lord
I am trusting on the Word you have said.
I am waiting on you.
I am rejoicing that the Bible says you are my victorious warrior
You are the one who fights for me
I don't have to fight anymore
My Faith is rising
I can see you again Lord
I can see you on the horizon of my life, O Lord

I don't have to be discourage anymore
I don't have to fight this loneliness anymore
You are in my life more than anyone can be
Father, we're building a relationship again just me and you
It's not about the job I have or the friends I have
The house or social status
It's about me and you
Your building up my faith again!

I resonate with this song. It reminds me of the journey we must all walk through. It reminds me the way is and will be lonely, joyful, heartbreaking, exciting, frustrading, rewarding... It reminds me of the most important commandment found in Matthew 22:37. Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and mind. Love your neighbour as yourself. If this is the journey we all must face...let's us always set our eyes on Jesus and love each other with a genuine affection that will encourage them along their life's path. We are a body. We need one another!

Blessings

Worshipping in Spirit and Truth...

2005-10-30T22:50:00.000-05:00

THE PRAYER
"I'll pray you will be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che to dai

I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
Ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ch dai
We ask that life be kind
Ei'l desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera"

Oh this song...what a beautiful, beautiful song!! hmmm...what a beautiful service!!! What a beautiful, beautiful, BEAUTIFUL Savior!!! No preaching needed...just time spent worshipping Jesus and it was His words I heard and His presence I felt and His heart I was yearning to please. One word:BREAKTHROUGH!!

Lord, you bless me! You lead me to place you wanted me to go and have guided me along the way. Oh Lord, you have given wisdom in times I did not know. This is my anthem and this is my prayer that I would find your light and find my way always back to you!

Thank you Lord for anointing Natasha and Lynn Erskine with voices that glorify you and bring us closer to your throne. We were honored that you would be pleased to enter into our service this morning. I was drawn in by your presence and I am grateful that your grace continues to amaze me and your love is deeper than anything I've ever known! Lord, I am grateful!!

BLESSED!!!

2005-10-27T14:17:00.000-04:00

Here are the beautiful women, friends and mentors who are apart of my rewarding life!! When I realized how easily I could add pictures to my post I knew I HAD to dedicate this blog entry to the ladies who inspire and enrich my life!! I am truly blessed!!! THANK YOU!

1 Samuel 20:17
And Jonathan made David reaffirm his vow of friendship again for Jonathan loved David as he LOVED HIS OWN SOUL!!

What an eventful couple of days....

2005-10-21T21:44:00.000-04:00

SOME GOOD...SOME VERY BAD!!!! Let's start with the bad...according to tina...the bad is funny but very weird!! I've been known to call our neighbourhood the gheotto and I've felt very nervous to walk alone especially at night here. I lived in Toronto for 6 months and I felt more safe walking alone there then I do sometimes in my Sussex neighbourhood. So, yea...this is why? Last night, I was up in my room and I heard my roommate Diana yelling for me to come. Tina and I had been here alone with the doors unlocked not knowing that we had company. Our company was a drunk man passed out in the middle of our driveway. Needless to say, I was incredibly creeped out. We all were!!! He did eventually get up and stumble away but not before Billings got a photo. Be sure to stop by Billings blog to see for yourself. John Billings blog-www.think-pad.blogspot.com It's quite the sight!!!

NOW FOR THE GOOD NEWS!!! I am no longer a free-loader!!! I am a Movie Gallery employee!! So excited but a bit nervous too. I start this week...be sure to stop by and say hello. If you do, I only ask one thing...don't make fun of my uniform. The shirt is a frency's special because I have to wear a red polo shirt. I don't own a polo shirt. Polo shirts are not really my style especially ones that are ten times too big for me. But, I really can't complain cause it will be money in my pocket...my very, very empty pocket!! Okay, I'll allow a brief giggle but only if I can have a good one with ya!!! Just a reminder, I get free movies!! YEAH FOR MOVIE NIGHTS!!!
My last thought of the night is...
This blog entry is dedicated to Heidi Sattler!!!
Why you ask??
She told me to blog so I did!!
I think that's a good enough reason...you could be next!!!

I WANTED TO SHOOT THE PUCK....

2005-10-17T23:54:00.000-04:00

I've been at Bethany a LONG time and I've went to many hockey games...AND never won the subway shoot UNTIL tonight!! I was so incredibly pumped! I even had the perfect shirt on. It's the only graphic t-shirt I own but it's a good one. It clearly states, " I Love Hockey Players!" With a heart for crying out loud!! I really do...my first love was the captain of His hockey team!! Oh yes. Chris Carter! hmmm. Sorry...I got a little sidetracked there. Anyways, Rob had come around and I randomly said 25. He came back to me and ask for another number. I had won! I had won at the first hockey game of the season. I walked down to the doors to get ready to go on the ice. Mr Andy Walker thought it wasn't a good idea to have the subway shoot since it had been a rough night on the rink. grrr... Okay, so Andy Walker has made it into two different blog entries of like 13. My Diana hasn't even been mentioned more than once. What's with that? HAHA! So, I didn't get to shoot the puck or show off my t-shirt but I did still get a subway sandwich! Pretty sweet deal since my cash flow has come to a sudden stop. I really hope Movie Gallery hires me or I'm really in a mess!

Blessings!

Interview at Movie Gallery...

2005-10-15T22:17:00.000-04:00

I am getting a call back!!! YES! I couldn't be more excited!

A peak into my world...

2005-10-09T18:21:00.000-04:00

More than just enough

Be STILL and KNOW that HE is GOD
Even on a dark night like tonight
Do you think He forgot?
Do you think He doesn’t care?
Well HE dOES and HE'S more than just enough.

I know you’re going through this alone
You knock so hard on that door but still there’s no one home
HE WILL ANSWER you and ANSWER you WITH LOVE
And that’s why HE’S MORE than just enough

YOU are more than just enough, LORD
YOU are more than just enough
Even when times get rough
YOU are more than just enough

Hot tears and a heavy heart
Everything is slipping away
You’re falling apart
HE gazes down at you beaming WITH LOVE
Saying CHILD…
YOU are more than just enough

There are times I feel my life slipping through my hands
My thoughts provoke my tears as I try to understand
But YOUR HAND SUSTAINS me, YOUR LIFE REMINDS me
YOU’RE the only thing worth living for…
That’s why YOU’RE MORE!!

Isaiah 43:1-7,10.
But now, thus says the LORD, your CREATOR, O JACOB, And HE who formed you, O Israel,
"Do not FEAR, for I have REDEEMED you; I have CALLED you by name; you are MINE!"

When you pass through the waters, I WILL be WITH you; and through the rivers, they will not OVERFLOW you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched nor will the flame burn you.
For I AM the LORD your GOD, The HOLY ONE of Israel, your SAVIOR; I have given Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in your place.
Since YOU ARE PRECIOUS IN MY SIGHT, Since YOU ARE HONORED and I LOVE YOU!!

Do not fear for I AM with you
I will bring your offspring from the east
And gather you from the west.
I will say to the north, GIVE THEM UP!
And to the south, DO NOT HOLD THEM BACK

Everyone who is CALLED by MY NAME,
And whom I have CREATED for MY GLORY,
Whom I have FORMED, even whom I have MADE.
"YOU ARE MY WITNESSES," declares the LORD
"And My Servant whom I have CHOSEN!"

Lamentations 3:22-24
The unfailing love of the Lord never ends! By His mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is His faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day. I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance; therefore I will hope in Him!”

Hebrews 12:12
So take a new grip with your tired hands and stand firm on your shaky legs. Mark out a straight path for your feet. Then those who follow you though they are weak and lame will not stumble and fall but will become strong.

James 4:10
When you bow down before the Lord and admit your dependence on him he will lift you up and give you honor.

This is where I am. I have started to make necessary changes in my life. There has been many life lessons I’ve been faced with lately that have made a significant impact on my life. I’ve learned that “the right thing” isn’t always “the best thing.” I’ve learned that other people want what’s best for you but don’t quite realize their best isn’t always necessary the best for me. I’ve learned that people sometimes try so hard at protecting their love ones that they over-step their love ones own ability to protect themselves. I’ve learn that I am no longer able to please everyone with every decision I make. I’ve learned the more I tried to please others the less I know about what pleases me…Does that ever leave someone feeling lost.

So, I have gone through a pretty intense process. God’s voice had become very hard to hear because I had long forgotten how it sounded. The very things God has stripped away from me were the very things holding me in bondage. I am finding a joy in the Lord I have only dreamed of. I am looking to find His heart rather than trying to fix mine. I would have never asked for this crisis but I am so thankful to God for it happening anyway.

1 Corinthians 2:9
No eye has seen, no ear has heard and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.

Jeremiah 29:11-14
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. They are plans for good and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me. I will be found by you, says the Lord.

Thank you for lifting me...Thank you for lifting my head, LORD.

Blessings!

Andy Walker thinks I am a...WHAT??

2005-10-03T22:16:00.000-04:00

He thinks I am a POOP DISTURBER!! NOOOO....
Canadian's VS American's!!!
What can I say...I am proud to be a Canadian!!
You say Candy Bars...I say Chocolate Bars
You say Soda...I call it Pop
All I have left to say is...when I ask for a coke, I WANT A COKE!!! Please don't ask what kind of coke cause it's plan and simple....I WANT A COKE!!!
To all my american friends...I love you but there are somethings we have to agree to disagree on!! It makes life exciting. This is officially the end of my rant!!

It's impossible to sleep

2005-09-29T01:20:00.000-04:00

It's just not happening tonight...I cannot believe it's coming down to this. One sheep, two sheep, three sheep, four sheep, five freakin sheep...will someone tell Bert and Ernie this is not working??? Six sheep, seven sheep...One bottle pop, two bottle pop, three bottle pop, four bottle pop, five bottle pop, six bottle pop, seven bottle pop...Don't throw your junk in my backyard, my backyard, my backyard. Don't throw your junk in my backyard, my backyards full. Fish and chips and vinegar, vinegar, vinegar. Fish and chips and vinegar, pepper, pepper pepper, salt. I am random. Eight sheep, nine sheep...yawning...ten sheep...yawning. This is good...yawning. It's actually working, my eyes are getting heavy. Bert and Ernie, You are my Heroes!!! I'm Out!

I think I've come full circle....

2005-09-27T12:52:00.000-04:00

Thought I was done with Bethany Bible College...
Thought I was done with the Martimes...
Thought I was done with school PERIOD...
Until the discussion I had with my Lord as I drifted off to sleep last night!
For weeks, I have been seeking my Lord for some answers about my life and my future.
All I've experienced is hard-core silence from Him.
This brought me to a very broken place in my life.
Broken dreams and unfulfilled plans brought me to my knees.
God's voice has been hard to follow...
This has prove true in my life.
I lived in 3 different places in three weeks.
I promise myself I would not live at home and work at my old job this summer again...
Guess where I lived and worked this summer?? Home and my old job.
I promised myself I wouldn't move back to Sussex again...
Guess where I am living? Sussex.
Why? Because everything I touched seems to crumble in my hands.
But I've learn that...
I need to walk by faith even when I cannot see
Because this broken road prepares God's will for me!!
This is where I have come full circle...
God not only has brought me back to Sussex
but His words to me last night leads me to believe He has a possible minor or major in Christian Counseling at Bethany in His plans for me.
I thought I was done
I wanted to be done
BUT...God seems to have different plans!!
AND...I am at peace with it!
Bring it on...I'm ready, Lord!
I'm finally ready to follow, Lord!
I want nothing more than your perfect will for me!!!

Graduating is harder than I would have expected

2005-04-14T15:37:00.000-04:00

I have just attended my last chapel ever as a student. What a great service!! I am going to miss the worship times we shared as a body together. I have had some very special times there and my experiences with God there have been life changing. Praise the Lord for the blessing He bestows to us! Today was one of those special times within the chapel. We shared together in communion as a graduating class. My heart was blessed. This will be a memory that will stay with me. My tears were a token of gratitude towards my Heavenly Father for the blessings He has given to me! The friendships around that altar have eternally impacted me. Thank you Lord for being Lord over all. Thank you for binding hearts together. In you, all things hold together. A cord of three is not easily broken. Thank you for these deep abiding friendships! I place my trust in you for a successful finish and a bright new beginning. I trust you with my heart as I move from here!!

2005-04-11T01:17:00.000-04:00

Friendship keeps your dreams alive

There's always something to be passionate about when you have friends

2005-04-11T01:16:00.000-04:00

There's always something to be assionate about...if you got friends

2005-04-11T01:15:00.000-04:00

Good times

2005-04-11T01:14:00.000-04:00

We have sisters and cousins...We've got it all right here within our circle of friends

2005-04-11T01:12:00.000-04:00

There's nothing quite like having friends whom you can count on

2005-04-09T22:46:00.000-04:00

Hey...It's Me

My first insight!

2005-04-09T21:53:00.000-04:00

Oh, this is going to be good. It's my first insight and I had to ask Diana what my insight was gonna be. I depend on her way too much. HAHA!! CRAP, what am I going to do once graduation is here and gone. I'm going to be sooo lost without her! Here's an insight...Never, EVER take forgranted the friendships you have. I am about to embark on a new journey in my life but the friendships God has blessed me with will never be forgotton. I know I wouldn't be Missy Mowbray without them.